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I promise to be brave...

life may make me go through hell...
to pass the tough lessons,i will do my homework well...
face it with such courage..your heart with pride,will swelll..
through all of the thunderstorms,I promise to be brave...I

may falter and cry..
wonder all of it happened to me why..
but come wat may,wont quit until i die..
i promise to be brave...

the toughness may get to me..
.in the morning may the stars i see...
determined with fervour i'll always be...
I promise to be brave..

.at times,the future may look bleak..
no win in sight,i may look weak..
will not surrender to be a meek..
will solder on...i promise you this...

my determination may not look so bright,
but be sure,the goal will not leave my sight...
I will work hard,not quitting day and night..
not falter,i'll be brave...

All those first times...

The first time you said "I love you"..

felt like my tired heart had finally got its due..

The months I spent waiting were more than few....

All those moments i think i never will rue..

The first time you held my hand..

I felt as happy can be...there was an ocean of love inside me..

happiness,joy waiting to be let out you see..

It was like stepping out into a whole new world for me...

The first time you said,"for thee I care..."

I knew I'd found someone..with whom my sorrow,my problems,my shortcomings I could share...

To pour out my feelings to a stranger I did dare..

my heart,my soul in front of you was laid bare...

The first time you wiped a tear off my eye..

the kindness,the love,the comfort,the hug..out of mere happiness I thought I'd die..

I held you so close..never wanting to let go..I vividly remember..."Sigh...!!"

I felt my feet leaving the earth,so lucky was I..

And now that you are gone..and so far away..

to all those first times,those memories,does my heart sway..

Further and further you may go away from me..

my heart,the pain will always be deep,buried within me..

But through all the first times,I'll always remember thee..

You are....

you are the cool summer breeze,tat gladdens my heart....
you are the apple of my eye..your absence pierces as sharp a dart...

You are the dewdrops that decorate my dawn...
you are a feeling..as pure as innocent as a new born..

you are the colourful rainbow that lights up my sky..
you are my world..my love..without whom I'd die...

You are like the calming first rains..that end the summer heat...
you are the one who is the centre of my universe..my every heartbeat....


you are like the rays of the bright glistening sun...
you are a joy,my happiness..for me you're the only one...

My mornings beg to see you..
every noon,your absence I rue..
evenings threaten to me,they will sue..
Such nights are so very few...
when I'm not thinking of you...



FOR,TO ME YOU ARE MY WORLD.....

To you,my love....

The first time you held my hand,said “I love u,”
I know it was messy, but I could only manage “me too,”
You leaned forward and said, “you all right?”
I know I could’ve died,
Your love shook my might….
Oh the lovely sight…
I couldn’t sleep all night…!!!

Then there was when you kissed me
My heart danced, I felt so free,
I lay my head into your arms,
Your embrace felt as wide as the vast sea…


We walked; your hand clutched mine,
I nearly tripped, but for once I didn’t whine
Your love was there for me, I felt utterly divine..!!!


When you looked into my eyes, I felt so warm inside
Whenever I felt cold, I wanted u by my side..!!
In your eyes, my imagination, u took me for a ride...
And even if I wanted to get out, I couldn’t, how hard I tried..


With u I felt so happy, bliss was thy name,
After that I knew I would never feel the same,
For your love dear, I was game……

Your love was a gift, a joy, my pleasure..
I considered it my life’s greatest treasure,
I couldn’t tell you how much I loved you,
To express feelings such deep, words are few,
You could peep into my heart to see,
My love for you was deeper than the sea.

When you said you felt the same about me,
I’ve never been so happy, so whole, so me,
It was an entirely new feeling you see,
My heart swayed in excess mirth, my soul was free



My love, you’ve just given so much to me,
you mean so much,
Your every touch,
Your love was such,
Very utterly divine…

I miss you...

Though we live only miles apart..
the distance pierces me..as sharp a dart..
it pains that we can no longer meet every day..
laugh,share secrets,be merry and gay..
your friendship in my dark times was as bright a ray..
old and bent with memories we may..
the memories will never fade ..i say..
we may grow up and go our own way..
but the flame will never die..nay...!!
you may be a doctor..and I??(wherever life leads me to be..)
however busy we are,
for each other,our hearts(if not our schedules)may alwayz be free...
because the two years(and counting)we;ve nutured it..
its grown up to be a wonderful tree...
branches spread wide..but roots as firm as can be..
its the envy of people,they alwayz talk you see...
but the tree of our relationship will always be special to me...

(this poem is in memory of all my old buddies...!!who are now in different colleges..we hardly find time to meet up..yes..but i miss them all the same...!!love you all...!!!)

The aftermath....

Another terrorist attack in Mumbai...this oness more dangerous and more horrible than the last..when the train blasts happened on 11th september(i hope i've not got the date wrong!!)two years back,I was near the Bandra station.we were going to take a train home,but mum called on my cell and asked me to take the bus..i dont no y..she got an intution or something..??but we did that and reached home..before the city became a traffic jam(panicked ppl trying to get home)and the cellphone signals switched off(the police did that for security reasons).the instant we got home and switched the television on,the news surprised us..moments before we were near the station...and no blasts,no nothing heard..rush hour and everyone was in a hurry to get home..and the moments later,all this blast thing...true this was the first time they'd stuck the heartline of mumbai,the local trains and i thought that there could be no other attack as horrifying and of course surprising as this one..clearly i was wrong...
the train blasts made us a bit cautious..after that whenever we used to travel by train,we used to have a look around the compartment(some of the people i knew would even look under the seats)..and see if there was anything or anyone behaving unnaturally...
what angered me(and still has me seething)are these speeches given by the politicians once a terrorist attack has taken place.."the people need to be strong and not panic..if we reamain united..the terrorists willnot succeed in their mission..."and then of course they have a standard line.."these cowardly(or dastardly..different adjectives are used everytime)acts of the terrorists have shocked the whole nation..but we will not be cowed down...and..the guilty ones will be punished..."What the fuck man..??u talk about 'being united so that the terrorists not succeed in theis mission'...fuck off..Mr.politician.. dont u see that they(the terrorists)have already succeeded in their 'mission'??which other fucking mission of theirs is left incomplete??they've already done the damage they intended to..killed people,destroyed property..done whatever... what else is left for them to do??!!and yet these dumb politicians will go on and on...
the cowardly acts of the terrorists they(the politicians)say..i say what cowardly u idiots..??itzz gutsy..if not anything else..the terrorists managed to kill the innocents in broad daylight...without anyone stopping them or whatever..cowardly it is in the sense that "they chose to protest or make their voice heard(whatever their cause might be)..through violence...".. then the politicians ask for people to stay calm..hell..!!did they the oldies,dumb oldies stay calm when the parliament was attacked??the parliament attack led to the biggest mobilization of forces in the country post-independence and led to fears of a nuclear war with that pakistan...but it was timely averted...now that brings me to ask..u asshole politicians,how calm were you oldiezz...??their statement that the 'act of the terrorists have shocked the nation"..i doubt Mr.politician..i doubt that...with attacks taking place every month..no ones surprised..lest of all shocked..now the scenarios such that if people hear of any blast..they go like.."ohk..one again?? which place is it now??"no shock or anything...then the last thing that irritates me is their claim that 'the guilty ones will be punished'..fuck off again..Mr.politician..no one ever is..forget punished..no one is caught even..no one is convicted..no one is proved guilty...the sad..but true reality...how else can u explain afzal guru(the 2001 parliament attack convict)still being alive when he was sentenced to death..years ago..(but here too the popular sentiment among people is that he is being punished to hide some 'big' people..no one nozz who or what..then the other thought is that the Congress doesnot want to offend the Muslims..fuck their votebank policies)but the bottomline is that 'no one wants to do the dirty work'..really now...
what saddens me the most is that the politicians think only of themselves and not of the 'greater good'..its frustrating...