KILLED (LOVE STORY OF A HERO )

KILLED (LOVE STORY OF A HERO )

If only eyes could kill,
I am killed.
If only words could,
I am killed.
If only looks could kill,
I am killed.

I am killed, I am murdered,
By her eyes,looks,words,everything
I am bleeding, drop by drop,
Blood dripping from my skin.
I am totally conquered by her,
I am suffering, I am bleeding
I am, But still, enjoying it

I love pain, I love her
I dont know why.
I just do, thats right!
I do, I do love both.

Now, I am suffering, again
Now, I am bleeding, again
She has left me,
Dont know why
She has gone,
Dont know why.

I am Suffering, I am bleeding
But this time I am not enjoying it,
I am really suffering
I, me , my, everything of mine is sad,
They miss her, they want her,
Her mudering eyes,
looks, words, everything.

I live for her.
I am waiting, waiting to be killed
I am still standing!
But for how long?
Before I go I want to see her,
I just want to be dead, killed.
Again, but by her,
When I see her
Standing before me!
Just as I go....

my darling sis....

TO my darling sister.
to say u're younger to me..but in reality you have alwayz been much older to me in terms of thinking,wit,grace,elegance and much much more....ppl think i'm more intelligent but intelligence is not measured in terms of marks alone...!!!there;ve been tymz u;ve lived in my shadow known throughout as 'my lil sis'..how u must have hated that..not having an identity of ya own and being known as someone;s lil sis..but i admired and looked on in awe as you took it in your stride and even paraded that tag of being known as my sis with pride and such elegance that it totally blew me off..!!I became a bigger fan of yours than u may never have known!!!I looked on and merely smiled when you narrated to mum how proud you were of me,how the teachers waxed eleqounce about my marks..what made me the happiest was not the 'praise I received'....but the happiness and pride i saw on ya face..the excitement with which you recited it all to mum..not an ounce of jealousy you felt but the selfless love you alwayz praised me with...!!I never could do the same with u for I was unable to express my feelings...in truth i loved the way u cud take a stand on stuff you believed in..the way u used flattery to ya advantage..the way u stood up for anyone u loved..the way u handled yaself..your anger,your confidence,your wit..all made me love you and admire you more...!!we've shared such awesome and fun memories together...growing up with u has been an absolute pleasure..i'm so going to miss you after i'm married..all those tears we shared..the dumb jokes we cracked..mum;s gaalis we heard..the weird way we laughed..how we used to gang up against anyone irritating either of us..!!such a formidable team we were...!!separation..even physical..the thought of it makes me :( :( i never ever wanna be away from u..u're my bestest friend.

a decade ago...

!.i was still in school...and school is lyk one of my favorite places on earth...
2.it was the still the first year..i was friends with ahem ahem..someone who would later turn out to be one of the biggest bitches i've ever had the misfortune to meet...so i was still getting to know her...
3.i was this shy kid..didnt speak much..
4.i was the the best reader in the class...i mean i could read without stuttering a least bit and pronounce the words correctly..
5.there was this girl in my class..i'll call her miss.B...yeah so she was lyk jealous of me and would demand to know that why was it that only i who got a chance to read..and not anyone else(duh uh..she couldnt match my oratory skills one bit...!!!)
6.i didnt have any exams...(hurrah..!!!)
7.i wanted to spend all my time playing...!!
8.i had a big group...(me.pooh,kav,toast,keys,isha,dimpz,pooh's brother,ankletz,swaggerz,devdz,kishz,prashz....good lord there were so many of them...todayz scenario-toastz my sis,me and pooh are still thick friends,kav sucks bigtym..it'd be good to get a chance to slap her:-)...isha and dimpz live in the adjacent buliding..so does keys..i dont really like isha much..shez kinda wierd..but ok..no hard feelings..dimpz stays in her own world..and toast is on good terms with keys..poohz brother is a jerk still..love calling him naughty chimp..but now that hez in 10th grade..i mite have to stop..!!..ankletz..how i hate him..thinks hez some kinda maharaja..hangs around with wierd ppl..doesnt even say 'hi' when he sees you..kinda arrogant..but jeez i give a damn..!!!swagger..hez kool..lives in a hostel noe..hardly comes here..but when he does..is nyc to me..but still somewhat aloof..but k...kishz and prashz both brothers..god knows where they live now..last tym i heard kishz lived in my bro'z area..but still he was kinda shy to greet me..dont no y..!!phew..!!)
9.no worries about the future...
10.didnt even no wat 'future' meant..
11.wore watever clothes mum selected for me..so complaints ever..
12.loved fighting with my sis..gotta kich outta hitting her;-)
13.mum then used to smack me back bad..in for a big lecture...!!
14..totally tomboyish..!!
15.started reading newspapers(credit goes to my class teacher...)
16.yamini miss was totally my favorite(she still is...shez my favorite teacher eva..!!love her and remember her even today...!!not to forget totally miss her..wonder where she is now..!!)
17.my school principal totally scared me...!!(tat continued to be the case through my entire school life...)
18..thought life was all about how much time u gotta play....!!!!

random....

I promise to be brave...

life may make me go through hell...
to pass the tough lessons,i will do my homework well...
face it with such courage..your heart with pride,will swelll..
through all of the thunderstorms,I promise to be brave...I

may falter and cry..
wonder all of it happened to me why..
but come wat may,wont quit until i die..
i promise to be brave...

the toughness may get to me..
.in the morning may the stars i see...
determined with fervour i'll always be...
I promise to be brave..

.at times,the future may look bleak..
no win in sight,i may look weak..
will not surrender to be a meek..
will solder on...i promise you this...

my determination may not look so bright,
but be sure,the goal will not leave my sight...
I will work hard,not quitting day and night..
not falter,i'll be brave...

All those first times...

The first time you said "I love you"..

felt like my tired heart had finally got its due..

The months I spent waiting were more than few....

All those moments i think i never will rue..

The first time you held my hand..

I felt as happy can be...there was an ocean of love inside me..

happiness,joy waiting to be let out you see..

It was like stepping out into a whole new world for me...

The first time you said,"for thee I care..."

I knew I'd found someone..with whom my sorrow,my problems,my shortcomings I could share...

To pour out my feelings to a stranger I did dare..

my heart,my soul in front of you was laid bare...

The first time you wiped a tear off my eye..

the kindness,the love,the comfort,the hug..out of mere happiness I thought I'd die..

I held you so close..never wanting to let go..I vividly remember..."Sigh...!!"

I felt my feet leaving the earth,so lucky was I..

And now that you are gone..and so far away..

to all those first times,those memories,does my heart sway..

Further and further you may go away from me..

my heart,the pain will always be deep,buried within me..

But through all the first times,I'll always remember thee..

You are....

you are the cool summer breeze,tat gladdens my heart....
you are the apple of my eye..your absence pierces as sharp a dart...

You are the dewdrops that decorate my dawn...
you are a feeling..as pure as innocent as a new born..

you are the colourful rainbow that lights up my sky..
you are my world..my love..without whom I'd die...

You are like the calming first rains..that end the summer heat...
you are the one who is the centre of my universe..my every heartbeat....


you are like the rays of the bright glistening sun...
you are a joy,my happiness..for me you're the only one...

My mornings beg to see you..
every noon,your absence I rue..
evenings threaten to me,they will sue..
Such nights are so very few...
when I'm not thinking of you...



FOR,TO ME YOU ARE MY WORLD.....

To you,my love....

The first time you held my hand,said “I love u,”
I know it was messy, but I could only manage “me too,”
You leaned forward and said, “you all right?”
I know I could’ve died,
Your love shook my might….
Oh the lovely sight…
I couldn’t sleep all night…!!!

Then there was when you kissed me
My heart danced, I felt so free,
I lay my head into your arms,
Your embrace felt as wide as the vast sea…


We walked; your hand clutched mine,
I nearly tripped, but for once I didn’t whine
Your love was there for me, I felt utterly divine..!!!


When you looked into my eyes, I felt so warm inside
Whenever I felt cold, I wanted u by my side..!!
In your eyes, my imagination, u took me for a ride...
And even if I wanted to get out, I couldn’t, how hard I tried..


With u I felt so happy, bliss was thy name,
After that I knew I would never feel the same,
For your love dear, I was game……

Your love was a gift, a joy, my pleasure..
I considered it my life’s greatest treasure,
I couldn’t tell you how much I loved you,
To express feelings such deep, words are few,
You could peep into my heart to see,
My love for you was deeper than the sea.

When you said you felt the same about me,
I’ve never been so happy, so whole, so me,
It was an entirely new feeling you see,
My heart swayed in excess mirth, my soul was free



My love, you’ve just given so much to me,
you mean so much,
Your every touch,
Your love was such,
Very utterly divine…

I miss you...

Though we live only miles apart..
the distance pierces me..as sharp a dart..
it pains that we can no longer meet every day..
laugh,share secrets,be merry and gay..
your friendship in my dark times was as bright a ray..
old and bent with memories we may..
the memories will never fade ..i say..
we may grow up and go our own way..
but the flame will never die..nay...!!
you may be a doctor..and I??(wherever life leads me to be..)
however busy we are,
for each other,our hearts(if not our schedules)may alwayz be free...
because the two years(and counting)we;ve nutured it..
its grown up to be a wonderful tree...
branches spread wide..but roots as firm as can be..
its the envy of people,they alwayz talk you see...
but the tree of our relationship will always be special to me...

(this poem is in memory of all my old buddies...!!who are now in different colleges..we hardly find time to meet up..yes..but i miss them all the same...!!love you all...!!!)

The aftermath....

Another terrorist attack in Mumbai...this oness more dangerous and more horrible than the last..when the train blasts happened on 11th september(i hope i've not got the date wrong!!)two years back,I was near the Bandra station.we were going to take a train home,but mum called on my cell and asked me to take the bus..i dont no y..she got an intution or something..??but we did that and reached home..before the city became a traffic jam(panicked ppl trying to get home)and the cellphone signals switched off(the police did that for security reasons).the instant we got home and switched the television on,the news surprised us..moments before we were near the station...and no blasts,no nothing heard..rush hour and everyone was in a hurry to get home..and the moments later,all this blast thing...true this was the first time they'd stuck the heartline of mumbai,the local trains and i thought that there could be no other attack as horrifying and of course surprising as this one..clearly i was wrong...
the train blasts made us a bit cautious..after that whenever we used to travel by train,we used to have a look around the compartment(some of the people i knew would even look under the seats)..and see if there was anything or anyone behaving unnaturally...
what angered me(and still has me seething)are these speeches given by the politicians once a terrorist attack has taken place.."the people need to be strong and not panic..if we reamain united..the terrorists willnot succeed in their mission..."and then of course they have a standard line.."these cowardly(or dastardly..different adjectives are used everytime)acts of the terrorists have shocked the whole nation..but we will not be cowed down...and..the guilty ones will be punished..."What the fuck man..??u talk about 'being united so that the terrorists not succeed in theis mission'...fuck off..Mr.politician.. dont u see that they(the terrorists)have already succeeded in their 'mission'??which other fucking mission of theirs is left incomplete??they've already done the damage they intended to..killed people,destroyed property..done whatever... what else is left for them to do??!!and yet these dumb politicians will go on and on...
the cowardly acts of the terrorists they(the politicians)say..i say what cowardly u idiots..??itzz gutsy..if not anything else..the terrorists managed to kill the innocents in broad daylight...without anyone stopping them or whatever..cowardly it is in the sense that "they chose to protest or make their voice heard(whatever their cause might be)..through violence...".. then the politicians ask for people to stay calm..hell..!!did they the oldies,dumb oldies stay calm when the parliament was attacked??the parliament attack led to the biggest mobilization of forces in the country post-independence and led to fears of a nuclear war with that pakistan...but it was timely averted...now that brings me to ask..u asshole politicians,how calm were you oldiezz...??their statement that the 'act of the terrorists have shocked the nation"..i doubt Mr.politician..i doubt that...with attacks taking place every month..no ones surprised..lest of all shocked..now the scenarios such that if people hear of any blast..they go like.."ohk..one again?? which place is it now??"no shock or anything...then the last thing that irritates me is their claim that 'the guilty ones will be punished'..fuck off again..Mr.politician..no one ever is..forget punished..no one is caught even..no one is convicted..no one is proved guilty...the sad..but true reality...how else can u explain afzal guru(the 2001 parliament attack convict)still being alive when he was sentenced to death..years ago..(but here too the popular sentiment among people is that he is being punished to hide some 'big' people..no one nozz who or what..then the other thought is that the Congress doesnot want to offend the Muslims..fuck their votebank policies)but the bottomline is that 'no one wants to do the dirty work'..really now...
what saddens me the most is that the politicians think only of themselves and not of the 'greater good'..its frustrating...

Blasts in Mumbai...

I woke up this morning to hear my milkman warn my mum,"bachiyon ko college mat bhejna..taj ke ke vahan bahut bade dhamake hue hain..."mum at once switched the television on and together we watched as the terrorists layed siege to Mumbai...my heart missed a beat when i heard that the terrorists killed ATS chief Hemant Karkare..damn them..!!it shook me from inside...i really really admired this man..his efforts in solving blast cases anywhere in the countryhave been remarkable..everytime there was a press conference about any blast case..i'd c him present giving out quotes and answering questions from the journoz..his was a tough job..and he was on the hitlist of major terrorists groups..but still the way he went about his job impressed me...honest,sharp,dedicated...some of the words that sum him up for me...and with his death..anti-terrorists efforts in the country have suffered a severe setback...besides that wat saddens me is the death of so many people....almost a hundred killed..damn it... the magnitude of the tragedy shook me...we kept the television running all the time..the reports baffled me..these terrorists went to CST station and fired indiscriminately towards anyone and everyone standing there..!!man..my heart grieved for all the lives lost..sad...when i saw the pictures of them..the terrorists..it made me cringe with anger...but also think(i'll write my views on that later)the people stuck inside the fabulous taj hotel,the jews taken hostage,the army people killed..it was mind boggling...some guts these terrorists have i tell u...but sad,really sad...seems like the terrorists have lost their sense of sanity..and humanity too..which sane person woud attack hospitals,railway stations,etc etc??

no words....

I only pray that the anit-terrorists operations get over fast..and the people who are looking forward to causing further mayhem and destruction have some sense knocked into them....ans also these idiotic,dumb and useless(not to mention old and barely able to walk)..politicians get their act together..before the country is doomed...I'm(and so are all the other Indians)sick of hearing of blasts taking place..now toh almost every month..and then u listen to these politicians givng false speeches of assurance.."whoevers done this will be punished"..nothing ever happens..in addition to punishing the guilty(when are they going to hang 'afzal guru'?)..the security structure and the intelligence gathering agencies need to be strengthened..and the best efforts need to be made to solve all the problems India is facing in terms of human rights(the Kashmir issue,the Naxal violence,the North-east insurgency..)..itz high time that these idiots sitting in Delhi..do something about that instead of dragging their usless feet on it...!!otherwise...GOD SAVE INDIA...!!!

In the end u are all alone...

ok now tis poem is a recent one i've written...i'm having bit of difficulty adjusting in my new college..itzz a lot to cope up with,but i'm not putting down my guard and being dejected or something..sometimes i wish i was born emotionless(i envy the people who are unaffected by anything or anyone..really)...coz emotionzz really..they can make or break a person..tatzz wat i've leant..u only can learn to cope up with them..so ahem ahem..back to buisness...
IN THE END U ARE ALL ALONE...


How many promises between all may be made,
for hours you may stick ya earz to the phone..
howmuch ever,the 'folks' may hang out together,
their absence you may moan..
remember..
In the end u're all alone...

They may say they miss you,
damn it if u believe it..
sounds nice to the ears,itzz true..
but its all a piece of glorified bullshit..
u're doomed if you believe an iota of it..
coz...
In the end u're all alone..


U may be the best of friends
sharing things,making amends...
but when itzz all over nothing makes sense..
coz..
In the end u're all alone..

Sometimes life may offer a brightside..
the distance with darkness may be wide..
Let not the illusion take you for a ride...
enjoy it while you can..
but remember nothing of it will last forever..
eventually..
In the end you are all alone....

Barack Obama Wins..!!!

I jumped in joy when the news flashed about Barack Obama winning..!!I so wanted to join all those African-American people and dance with them..!!he might have won the election to become the President of some other nation,but his victory gives a sense of joy to all!!
WHY I LIKE BARACK OBAMA...
first.I'm so sick of this belief in our country that white skin is superior.these 'fair and lovely' ads make me wanna get up and break the TV and also bash up all the people behind it..and whenever some 'darkskinned' person achieves something i feel like jumping and dancing and then yelling on their faces "see,it doesnt depend on the colour of the skin!!!".Barack may be only half black..but his apperance counts him out of the 'white' league..and for him to finally step out of the shadows and claim a place under the sun..it calls for celebration..!!!for me atleast..!!
Second hezz young..i mean not the age of our typical politicians(and indeed many of the American ones too)who can barely walk properly(read Atal Bihari Vajpayee..!!),save alone run a nation..a nation where the youth is in majority..!!so returning to Barack,I think hezz young age.. might prove to be a disadvantage as far as may be experience is concerned..but atleast hezz young,fresh and bubbling with ideas..!!and also I think the world is different now than it was in John Mcain's primetime..and a lot of today's youth identify with Obama..!!
third..hezz so charismatic..!!never once in his campaign has he highlighted his being 'different'. hezz never felt being a black sets him different from the others.hezz bubbling with confidence..and i so love that about him..I mean I've seen some of his speeches and his way of talking(firm yet polite),his gestures and of course his speeches,u simply have to sit up and listen in admiration..speaking for myself atleast I'm enthralled..!!!
fourth..his way of thinking..the way he has you no highlighted his policies,his plans and what he would do if elected,how he would go about his job..it delights me..while he didnot please everyone,he didnot waver a bit and was clear and clean..unlike Mccain who goofed up quite a few times..his vision and his understanding of things atleast to me seems clear and firm..!!
fifth...I love his persona..his is simply so charming to my eyes..!!the fact that a few years ago,he was barely known and for him now to burst on to the national stage and dislodge even people who've 'been there and done that'(like Hillary Clinton)..itz remarkable and speaks volumes about his abilities,his intelligence and his capabilities..to rise from a humble background..to not have been born with a silver sppon in his mouth..yet rise to phenomeonal heights of fame and importance..I think such people are to be celebrated.hen theres also the fact that hezz such a family person and he respects women..I admire his wife Michelle for she is smart and also a sharp,independent and a no-nonsense tolerating woman..!!soooo kkoool..!!
THE JOURNEY AHEAD
hezz got a hell lot of expectations resting on him..the entire world looks up to him now..and in this spotlight the way he'll go about doing his work..it will be heavily scrutinised..!!I only hope that he doesnt buckle under the immense pressure,lives up to all the expectations and the praises that've been showered upon him and does what is just,fair and benefits the majority..!!
GOD bless Barack Obama...!!!

I still miss you.....

though itzz been months really,i still miss you...
the memories,the fun but the fight i always rue.
friendshipz like ours,we said were very few..
we'd remain best friends forever,wasnt that true...

but still all good things come to an end..
and is that why u ceased to be my friend..??

days and months,soon years will go...
but the tears over our separation will forever flow..
the intensity may reduce..but still the storm will blow..
my mind in the boat of memories will forever row...

do you feel the same...god hath know...

Oh to meet a gentleman..!!

ok now tizz article is a homage to all my guyfriendzz who've been the sweetest to me and alwayzz helped me-come hail or rain..!!
boyzz are really incredibly wierd creaturezz..!!hate them,cuss them,dump them,insult them but u cannot ignore them ever..!!!to me,the working of the male mind is completely unfathomable..!! for example..they will run away from committment but yet willnot shy away from being 'mama's boyz"!!!:-)...they will fantasize about beautiful,hot chickzz the entire day,yet when they come home,they want their wives/mamas to be there alongside a hot,pipping meal..!!lolz...!!but i'm not cribbing..merely pointing out some qualitiezz that define a typical male specimen today..!!
ok so now to work..!!normally i wouldnt differentiate between my friendzz..but itzz true that since the time i was a kid,i've alwayzz felt more comfortable around guyzz..!!point out my being too tomboyish,call me a wannabe..watever..!!but itzz a fact.one of the reasons for this is that guyz as friends can be easy-going,warm and friendly.also they will not judge u or subject you to intense scrutinity..!!and also tizz "no gossiping thing"is my favorite..!!when i'm with my guyfriendzz,i'm more chilled out and relaxed really..!!and i've been really fortunate to have the best of them,the lot as my friends!!
whenever i've to go out with my friends,my mum will usually ask me who all are coming and then "whether they guys accompanying you are decent or not??"and i've to laugh at that ridiculous question of hers.she will demand to no the names of all the guys i no or who i am friends with..!!and if she hears a new name,man she freaks out..!!she goes like.."which new guy are you friends with now?".but then if i'm out till long(for her it is seven in the evening),she'll start to fret and call me up and ask,"which guy is dropping u home?".typically mom!!
my guyfriendzz are the coolest..and since more-often-than-not i'm the only girl admist them,they'll be so cool and caring towards me..!!if we're all walking down a road,atleast one of them will ensure that i'm not alone(and join me for company)and then they will insist that i walk on the 'safe' side of the road(the vehicle-free side!!)..!!and if i feel even slightly uncomfortable.. like if i get an intense fit of cough or my sandle-strap breaks,or i sprain my leg or hurt my ankle, they'll wait patiently and see to it that i'm feeling ok..!!they will if it is necessary hold my bag,purse or even my shoes and help me get up or hold my hand and help me walk at peace...!! i find that so endearing...!!also when i'm around,they'll try to be on the best of their behaviour like not using cuss words,walking without backslapping eachother or laughing like mad on the road..!! and if at all i do catch them swearing,they'll look at me with(supposed) guilt and say sorry!!and then i have to grin and say"itzz ok but let me not catch you doing that again!!".

TO MY SECRET LOVE...

dear secret love,
though itzz been agezz since we've known each other...since we've been friends...the sight of you never failzz to gladden my heart....while walking with you on the road of friendship,i didnt even know when my feelingzz took a turn..and i began to feel 'in tat manner' about you..no longer seeing you as "awww...hezz just a friend.."..my galfriend even warned me "girl dont even dare go down that lane with him...you'll lose a friend too".my mind was listening and itched to obey..but too bad i realised my heart had walked miles ahead anyway...!!
I no we've known each other since the time we were toddlers..and i've embarassed myself in front of you more than there are stars in the sky..!!each time i wanted to run away and hide my face...but i couldnt..i just stood beside you,watching you while you laughed and then smiled when u said," gosh man,you can be so funny!!"..i loved hearing you say that,i'll confess..!!i wonder why u didnt understand that watever i did was to seek your attention,so that you'd notice me??!! and yeah when u laughed,i laughed..coz i knew that atleast you felt happy with me..!!!
all the times we met,though there would be so many people around,i only wanted you..!!i wanted to sit beside you,talk only to you..have your full attention all the time..!!and when u even turned ya head to have a word with anyone else...i so felt like clawing that person's eyes out..!!i felt so possessive about you...!!
i knew always that there could be nothing between us..we'd alwayzz remain buddy buddy friends..all the while..but still i couldnt stop loving you..and anywayzz as a famous saying goes.. "forbidden fruit is alwayz sweet..!!"and as it is,you always treated me as a guy,one of your kind..i havent forgotten all the jokes,the backslaps(my back still hurtzz by the way..!!:-)...),the "wassup dude..!!chants,playing cricket with ya(i used to be a champ batsman by the way..!!)the "lezz go for a round at eleven in the night(and i wud b like guys,i wont be allowed coz i'm a girl!!forgotten??!!*makes an ugly face*),all that stuff still makes me smile..!!!
i remember a time when i thought i'd almost never smile again..only coz u said,"itzz high time i had a girlfriend..i think i shud begin to search for one".(btw i think tizz line of yazz is way too tacky...!!)i grinned painfully,so wanting to throttle whoever girl you find anway!!i wanted to jump so bad and dance in front of you,declaring pompously tat,"you idiot,i'm sitting next to you..just say the golden words.."but i couldnt and you knew i never would...!!
only my heart knows how deep and how true my love for you is...but at the same time,i'd never confess it to you..why..??coz for one i no you never have and never will see me in "that manner". i'll alwayz remain your "good old buddy"..the second reason is that i never would want to change the way it is between us...(laughing with your hand around my back,walking me home eben if it is late evening,all those sarcastic commentz,those grinzz,the laughter..)i never would want to change it even a bit..but the most important reason is that i never want to lose you as a friend... not insult our friendship which has stood the testing time,not insult the fun we've had,the secrets we have shared,the memoriezzz that will alwayzz remain...!!
why i'm writing this now..is because i like a new guy now..hezz in my college..!!but i'll tell you the truth. i could never like him the way i liked you..coz more than my love for you,we've been friends more than a decade..i could never no him as well as i no you..!!never get to spend the time we have,,the fun we have had...!!the stupid,silly and kiddish stuff we've done..all that now remains only as memories..!!and i'm happy and greatful for them..i'll confess..!!
i just hope that when we grow old..hair all white,wrinkled skin and barely enough strength to walk..when we meet and remember the "good old dayz"and when i finally would confess my love for you,you'd pat me lightly and comment "gosh..gal..the thingz you do.. wish you'd told me this that time..!!"and we are able to laugh it out..i really do hope and pray that such a time ever comezz....
i'll remember you forever..for you are and will alwayzz remain my secret love,
love,
your secret admirer..!!

itzz frndship day!!

first thingzz first yesterday was frndshipzz day..so herezzz wishing all a very very happy frndshipzz day!!!(bit kiddish??lolz...!!!)for me it was a fabzzz day!!wazzz life without frndzz tell ya??!!so we all got together ta have a blasssTT!!!and tat we did!!the "PURE SOULS" tatzz me,amu,kitz,nihar and Caran...!!we all met up and had a whale of time!!no with them itzz really kool..i can behave the way i wanna..not caring a hoot about "mannerzz or shezz so childish" commentzzz!!!coz they're a bunch of chilled out people really!!kitzz mum had made us some idlizz which were like mouth-watering!!(yumm..i over ate!!lolzz...)we got talking about our sathaye-college dayzz...and in no time we were rolling with laughter on the ground!!!there wazz( still izz there)math prof called 'anil nayak'....!!hezz the most pathetic proff or even person i've ever had the misfortune of meetin!!i remember during the firzzt lec,he started talkn instead of mathzz about 'sania mirza'z skirtz and about aishwarya rai'.his list of antics also included 'writing the number five on the blackboard and then proclaiming that he'd studied math so advanced that he was told that 'tizz is the number five??naa!!itzz the symbol for five,it represents five..it will perform all the functionzz five wil...but still itzz not the number five'and then he expected us to smile appreciatively..almost the whole class smiled....grinned more of("u idiot of a prof..if itzz so then wat the f*** is it???!!!)i personally wanted ta take out my shoe and hit him!!!then one time he called us studentzz 'bast***s'...tatzz coz one frnd of mine was wearing ankletz and her moving(though he didnt no tat)was causing noise(??)to disturb the whole class and his teaching(???).but i'd say the whole truth..another of a frnd was making some really annoying sound by rubbing her scale against a piece of chalk(try it....great resultzz)watever it may b..i dont think tat empowerss him ta use his brand of foul languauge on us...!!and anyway his leczz were all crap!!(a walking sleeping pill if there was ever one)but more than that i hated his "look-i've-written-many-books-studied advanced-math so i'm the greatest(*pukez*)math prof out here attitude!! i mean man really wat the F***???but really remembering his anticzzz had us in splitz.now it izz..back then i cud've hit his head with a shoe so that it wud've knocked some common sense inta him!!!hahhaha!!in sathaye,the peonzz i've ta admit would seem more sensible and better turned out than the profzz(forget teaching,they barely knew english!!)like one who use ta call ball a "BOL"and "velocity and acceleration" woukd be "veeeliiiyocityy and asselirashioN" we would be left to decipher the meanings for ourselves!!!really surviving them was an adventure in itself..!!after sathaye and itzz profzz,we did some typical bonkergiri....(posing for photozz.. taking some hilarious videoss)and then settling for a chat again..!!tizz time it was about a frnd of ourzz whozz acting really mean thzzz dayzz!!bitching may b!!but it was fun(hahaha)and i mite add tat i'm really famous among my frndzz for "GIGGLING"(hahahaa!!!)the way three hourzz passed and i stilll didnt wanna let go(puhleeze god..puhlezze..some more time with them)!!but go i had to!!so all in all one of my favorite dayzz!!herezzz saying cheerzz to the spirit of "FRIENDSHIP"!! Cheerz and for now adiozz!!!

JUST ME

enough of poemzzz aint it???i thought i'd write about myself!!!i've alwayz loved writing poemzz since as long as i remember!!but the first real one i wrote i thonk was eight to ten years ago!!!as a kid in 4th grade,the first one that i wrote was titled "the ocean".the lyriczz went like "i'm the ocean of white and blue..sometimes i make u feel scared,sometimes i'm nice to u!!"hahaha!! the next big thing for me i think was when my music teacher asked me to write a poem for him... so tat he could teach the same to the whole school!!!and i was like so overwhelmed!!coz all thiz occured when i'd not even passed my primary level class!!the theme of the poem was "friendships day"...i dont remember wat i wrote but milind sir(tatzz my music teacher)was distinctly impressed!!and whoosh!!i was transformed into the poet of the class!!but i'll say this about my poem-writing ability.i cant write as good poemzz when someone asks me to!!and tat watever i write at first i alwayz find it crap!!the words form inside me and the hands only give direction to the flow of thoughts in my brain!!!itzz like when my mind in filled with or i'd say overwhelmed with thoughtzz,feelings and emotions,i let it all out through writings..!!i find it quite therapautic!!
enough of "ME THE POET"...
These dayss,i'm feeling really low..tatz cozz i'm missing my frndzzz."THE BONKERZZ"it includes me,my best palzz amu and kitzz,then kundi(lolz...his actual name is neehar!!),then 'Car'an, nihar(patlu nihar to differentiate him from kundi..lolzz),adi, manji,niki,pratzz,shikha, manali and yeah parth!!! i really love all of them!!and am missing them sooooo bad!!!!we had so much fun together!!!just two dayz back we all met up at kundi's beach house for his goodbye lunch(hezz going ta solapur for his MBBS studies...sob!!!)we had a whale of time!!one of the best i've ever had!!cracking jokess,making noise(tatz our favorite passtime),laughing for no reason,posing for photozzz, the workzzz!!some may call this childish!!but tatz y we call ourselves "BONKERZZZ"!!
Also tiz is for all the budding and 'been there done that' engineerz out ther who happen to read my blog!!i've got admission in mba+btech (for IT)..in NMIMS...itzz a deemed university too!! so is it a good course??plzz if anyone could find out more about it,i'd b really grateful!!thanks!!
adiozz!!

THE DAY I WAS BORN

The day I was born was special I guess,
to this world me mom gave me access....
When I opened my eyes for the first time,
my cry seemed to perfectly rhyme.
I saw my mother cuddle me,
and I realised, special I was to be.
I saw my dad standing in a corner,
to be born as his daughter was a matter of honour.
All was right and there was joy all around,
all was clear and I could hear Almighty's sound.

"Go my child, live thee life,
with joy in it and full of strife.
"but remember i'll be there in the form of hope,
at tat moment no need to fear, nope"
And with that thought I fell asleep,
drawn into slumber, oh so deep.....

As I relive the joyous moments of my birth,
It fills my heart with excess of mirth...........

HELP ME PLZZ!!

As i slowly open me eyes, wat do i see?
is this where I'd live, how cud that be?
helpless,defenceless I am, how will i survive,
in this frightful world, how will I thrive??
Hatred,violence and injustice everywhere,
didnt god teach us to always b fair??
ppl fighting among one another,
no shame in killing one's brother??
will to this madness there b no end,
can human relationships b mend??
as I sit cuddled in the midst of all this,
the unhappiness, sorrow is something I cannot miss...
When I come into this world, is this how it is going to be,
is it going to be tat difficult to survive for me....
Help me............
(p.s. - I've written this poem imagining wat a child in his mother's womb would've spoken out)