KILLED (LOVE STORY OF A HERO )

KILLED (LOVE STORY OF A HERO )

If only eyes could kill,
I am killed.
If only words could,
I am killed.
If only looks could kill,
I am killed.

I am killed, I am murdered,
By her eyes,looks,words,everything
I am bleeding, drop by drop,
Blood dripping from my skin.
I am totally conquered by her,
I am suffering, I am bleeding
I am, But still, enjoying it

I love pain, I love her
I dont know why.
I just do, thats right!
I do, I do love both.

Now, I am suffering, again
Now, I am bleeding, again
She has left me,
Dont know why
She has gone,
Dont know why.

I am Suffering, I am bleeding
But this time I am not enjoying it,
I am really suffering
I, me , my, everything of mine is sad,
They miss her, they want her,
Her mudering eyes,
looks, words, everything.

I live for her.
I am waiting, waiting to be killed
I am still standing!
But for how long?
Before I go I want to see her,
I just want to be dead, killed.
Again, but by her,
When I see her
Standing before me!
Just as I go....

my darling sis....

TO my darling sister.
to say u're younger to me..but in reality you have alwayz been much older to me in terms of thinking,wit,grace,elegance and much much more....ppl think i'm more intelligent but intelligence is not measured in terms of marks alone...!!!there;ve been tymz u;ve lived in my shadow known throughout as 'my lil sis'..how u must have hated that..not having an identity of ya own and being known as someone;s lil sis..but i admired and looked on in awe as you took it in your stride and even paraded that tag of being known as my sis with pride and such elegance that it totally blew me off..!!I became a bigger fan of yours than u may never have known!!!I looked on and merely smiled when you narrated to mum how proud you were of me,how the teachers waxed eleqounce about my marks..what made me the happiest was not the 'praise I received'....but the happiness and pride i saw on ya face..the excitement with which you recited it all to mum..not an ounce of jealousy you felt but the selfless love you alwayz praised me with...!!I never could do the same with u for I was unable to express my feelings...in truth i loved the way u cud take a stand on stuff you believed in..the way u used flattery to ya advantage..the way u stood up for anyone u loved..the way u handled yaself..your anger,your confidence,your wit..all made me love you and admire you more...!!we've shared such awesome and fun memories together...growing up with u has been an absolute pleasure..i'm so going to miss you after i'm married..all those tears we shared..the dumb jokes we cracked..mum;s gaalis we heard..the weird way we laughed..how we used to gang up against anyone irritating either of us..!!such a formidable team we were...!!separation..even physical..the thought of it makes me :( :( i never ever wanna be away from u..u're my bestest friend.

a decade ago...

!.i was still in school...and school is lyk one of my favorite places on earth...
2.it was the still the first year..i was friends with ahem ahem..someone who would later turn out to be one of the biggest bitches i've ever had the misfortune to meet...so i was still getting to know her...
3.i was this shy kid..didnt speak much..
4.i was the the best reader in the class...i mean i could read without stuttering a least bit and pronounce the words correctly..
5.there was this girl in my class..i'll call her miss.B...yeah so she was lyk jealous of me and would demand to know that why was it that only i who got a chance to read..and not anyone else(duh uh..she couldnt match my oratory skills one bit...!!!)
6.i didnt have any exams...(hurrah..!!!)
7.i wanted to spend all my time playing...!!
8.i had a big group...(me.pooh,kav,toast,keys,isha,dimpz,pooh's brother,ankletz,swaggerz,devdz,kishz,prashz....good lord there were so many of them...todayz scenario-toastz my sis,me and pooh are still thick friends,kav sucks bigtym..it'd be good to get a chance to slap her:-)...isha and dimpz live in the adjacent buliding..so does keys..i dont really like isha much..shez kinda wierd..but ok..no hard feelings..dimpz stays in her own world..and toast is on good terms with keys..poohz brother is a jerk still..love calling him naughty chimp..but now that hez in 10th grade..i mite have to stop..!!..ankletz..how i hate him..thinks hez some kinda maharaja..hangs around with wierd ppl..doesnt even say 'hi' when he sees you..kinda arrogant..but jeez i give a damn..!!!swagger..hez kool..lives in a hostel noe..hardly comes here..but when he does..is nyc to me..but still somewhat aloof..but k...kishz and prashz both brothers..god knows where they live now..last tym i heard kishz lived in my bro'z area..but still he was kinda shy to greet me..dont no y..!!phew..!!)
9.no worries about the future...
10.didnt even no wat 'future' meant..
11.wore watever clothes mum selected for me..so complaints ever..
12.loved fighting with my sis..gotta kich outta hitting her;-)
13.mum then used to smack me back bad..in for a big lecture...!!
14..totally tomboyish..!!
15.started reading newspapers(credit goes to my class teacher...)
16.yamini miss was totally my favorite(she still is...shez my favorite teacher eva..!!love her and remember her even today...!!not to forget totally miss her..wonder where she is now..!!)
17.my school principal totally scared me...!!(tat continued to be the case through my entire school life...)
18..thought life was all about how much time u gotta play....!!!!

random....

I promise to be brave...

life may make me go through hell...
to pass the tough lessons,i will do my homework well...
face it with such courage..your heart with pride,will swelll..
through all of the thunderstorms,I promise to be brave...I

may falter and cry..
wonder all of it happened to me why..
but come wat may,wont quit until i die..
i promise to be brave...

the toughness may get to me..
.in the morning may the stars i see...
determined with fervour i'll always be...
I promise to be brave..

.at times,the future may look bleak..
no win in sight,i may look weak..
will not surrender to be a meek..
will solder on...i promise you this...

my determination may not look so bright,
but be sure,the goal will not leave my sight...
I will work hard,not quitting day and night..
not falter,i'll be brave...

All those first times...

The first time you said "I love you"..

felt like my tired heart had finally got its due..

The months I spent waiting were more than few....

All those moments i think i never will rue..

The first time you held my hand..

I felt as happy can be...there was an ocean of love inside me..

happiness,joy waiting to be let out you see..

It was like stepping out into a whole new world for me...

The first time you said,"for thee I care..."

I knew I'd found someone..with whom my sorrow,my problems,my shortcomings I could share...

To pour out my feelings to a stranger I did dare..

my heart,my soul in front of you was laid bare...

The first time you wiped a tear off my eye..

the kindness,the love,the comfort,the hug..out of mere happiness I thought I'd die..

I held you so close..never wanting to let go..I vividly remember..."Sigh...!!"

I felt my feet leaving the earth,so lucky was I..

And now that you are gone..and so far away..

to all those first times,those memories,does my heart sway..

Further and further you may go away from me..

my heart,the pain will always be deep,buried within me..

But through all the first times,I'll always remember thee..

You are....

you are the cool summer breeze,tat gladdens my heart....
you are the apple of my eye..your absence pierces as sharp a dart...

You are the dewdrops that decorate my dawn...
you are a feeling..as pure as innocent as a new born..

you are the colourful rainbow that lights up my sky..
you are my world..my love..without whom I'd die...

You are like the calming first rains..that end the summer heat...
you are the one who is the centre of my universe..my every heartbeat....


you are like the rays of the bright glistening sun...
you are a joy,my happiness..for me you're the only one...

My mornings beg to see you..
every noon,your absence I rue..
evenings threaten to me,they will sue..
Such nights are so very few...
when I'm not thinking of you...



FOR,TO ME YOU ARE MY WORLD.....